I'm leaving on a jet plane. Don't know when I'll be back again.

So I'm leaving to New York tonight. At 10:45pm and arriving to JFK at 1:40am.

I pretty much have my days planned out. I've started to clean my room in order to find my camera charger since I'm going crazy looking for things in here. I'm only taking one bag with me as to not carry so much. Wow, a girl taking a little bag for a week. Imagine that.

Do You Remember - Jay Sean. Very good song.

It doesn't feel like I'll be leaving today. I have yet to go to Mass and when I do, it's going to be 7pm, it finishes at 8 and then I have to go to the airport afterwards. I'm going to see if I can go to confession beforehand though.

Pray for me and for pilots and airports.

I'll be back home on the 4th and I'm going to take advantage of the fact that I'm in New York so I won't be on here very much or at all. Text me. But I'm not sure how well my phone is going to work up there so just try. If I don't reply within the day then it means:
A) Doesn't work.
B) I don't want to talk to you.
C) I died in a plane crash.
D) I don't want to talk to you.
E) My phone fell off the Empire State building in my attempt to feel like King Kong.
F) I don't want to talk to you.
G) I decided in New York that I felt a great calling into religious life and must destroy anything and everything that might lead me to sin...which means talking to you.
H) I don't want to talk to you.
I) In an attempt to dramatize the World Trade catastrophe, I climb the fence that blocks construction of Trump tower from citizens in order to act like a plane and then proceed to fall to my demise.
J) I don't want to talk to you.
K) The New York Yankees decided to hire me to pitch to them at practice.
L) I don't want to talk to you.
M) I got hungry.
N) I don't want to talk to you.
O) The tiger at the Bronx Zoo got hungry.
P) I don't want to talk to you.
Q) I was pick-pocketed and they took my phone because of the lack of money.
R) I don't want to talk to you.
S) I was climbing up a hill of ice and managed, brilliantly, to slide and fall down this hill while maneuvering, oh so skillfully, my body, as to not break any bones but meanwhile, only breaking my phone.
T) I don't want to talk to you.
U) 168th Street and Nelson Avenue has a new gang that decided to jump me.
V) I don't want to talk to you.
W) I found J-LO and we talked for hours, which lead to days, which led to a week.
X) I don't want to talk to you.
Y) I built a snowman and was so disappointed with the lack of liveliness from him, that I sat in the snow, depressed, and eventually caught hypothermia and died.
Z) Or just maybe, I just don't want to talk to you.
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I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

Oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you
Oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
Showing me a better way and all that my love can bring

Oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you
Oh, with half of my heart
With half of my heart

Your faith is strong
But I can only fall short for so long
Time will hold, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
But I can't stop loving you
But I can't stop loving you
But I can't stop loving you with half of my...
Half of my heart
Half of my heart

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do
Half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man who's never really loved anything
Half of my heart x5

OMB.

I SO LOVE this book. I can't put it down and I have to wake up at 7am tomorrow...er...today. Who cares!? ^_^

Little something's that have stood out so far:
When you're looking for a spouse:
solid faith, friendship, no addictions or major hangups, a real interest in raising good children, the ability to communicate, the ability to stand up to controlling parents, some interpersonal chemistry, and a willingness to commit to self-giving love. "Keep your standards reasonably high. It is better to be single and wish you were married than to be married and wish you were single. This must be a person who will help you to get to heaven. You need to see him/her in a number of different situations, not just dinner and a movie. You should consider the opinions of other people, but sift them with prudence. Above all, stay close to the Lord through prayer, Mass, confession, and living a moral life. Ultimately, only by God's grace can you make the right choice."

Chapter Two!! :D It's about understanding love.
Four types of love:
1. Agape - divine love
2. Philia - friendship
3. Storge - affection
4. Eros - emotional love

Agape is the Greek term for love. Agape is divine and gives life to all the others. The three human loves wither and die in selfishness if they are not animated by divine love. If agape becomes, by grace, the pervasive theme of your life, two things will happen. First, you will begin to love as God loves, something you will delight to see. Second, you will be able to unite in love with God and others. No other earthly delight can exceed that of good relationships. Nothing else can bring lasting happiness, in courtship, in marriage, or in heaven.

Choice love is love that we should have for God. Four marks our love for God should have:
1. permanence - in that it should be an ever-lasting commitment.
2. exclusiveness- in that we should love no other person to the extent that we love God (heart, soul, mind)
3. public - in that we should give witness to this love to others.
4. fruitful - in that it should bear fruit in our sharing God's life in us, the life of grace.
Conjugal love of marriage reflects choice love. It should have the same four marks:
1. permanence - in that it should be a lifelong commitment.
2. exclusiveness - in that each has but one spouse
3. public - that couples marry in public and make known their commitment, living it out in public
4. fruitful - in that it is ordered to the begetting of new life.
Conjugal love symbolizes the love between a person and God. Sexual intimacy is a sacred, physical sign of the conjugal love of marriage. Same four marks:
1. Permanence. The sex act itself cries out for a tomorrow. No matter what prior agreement has been made, if a true commitment does not exist between the partners (marriage), there will likely be at least a wistful feeling afterwards.
2. Exclusiveness. No one who is truly in love would be comfortable sharing his or her sex partner.
3. Public. Although the act of intercourse does not ordinarily take place in public (thank goodness), husband and wife don't usually hide the fact that they sleep together.
4. Fruitful. The act is ordered toward accepting nature's offer of new life. Children are the fruit of married love and give witness to that love for all eternity.

I will continue with Philia next some other time because now I'm getting tired and I want to finish this chapter at least. So get this book and read it. It's awesome and I love it and I approve. I thought it was hard to be a student but I think it's even harder to be chaste and to love properly. *sigh* I love school. Happyplacehappyplace.

Can't wait to see my mom tomorrow. :)

I saw New Moon twice yesterday.
The problem with it was that in some weird convoluted way, I felt like I related to each character perfectly. Both opposite and the same.

Here's my breakdown of their characteristics that relate to me which is pretty much them in general:

Bella:
Selfish
Insecure
Emotional
Erratic
Quiet
Confused
Organized

Edward:
Patient
Loving
Thoughtful
Confused
Hurting
Oriented
Understanding
Worried

Jacob:
Fun
Loving
Impatient
Disorganized
Systematic
Irrational
Anger
Concerned
Loud


The story line was similar and different also. Sometimes you feel as though you're waiting all those months for something you know is never coming or never coming back. The difference is that if it ever comes back, you know you can't have it. Isn't that a shame? Knowing so much about myself is kind of disconcerting. I know what to work on now.

You can't have everything...



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Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh